[[*---Don't Catch Me As I Fall---*]]

Sunday, April 03, 2005

Agnes asked me to go chinablack just now.
After much hesitation, I decided to go.
Just as I am preparing to go out, my mom came back.
I knew that's the end.
I told her I'm going to have supper with my friends.
I can't fool her with this coz she's my mom.
She knows me the best.
You can fool anyone but not your mother.
In the end, I'm stuck at home.

Went out with Huarong this afternoon.
We went Milenian Walk and then to Orchard.
Saw Michelle and Huarong saw her classmate.

Talked about our plans after we graduate from SP.
Both of us don't wana work in IT related line.
ITP and FYP left us feeling real sick of IT.

I am happy with myself.
I sent in my 1st job application today.
Its a start of the another chapter of my life.
Hope it reaches the destination.
Its a job that gonna change my life.
Pray that I get short listed for the interview.

Someone from another club told me that she hardly sees me in SAC now.
The amazing thing is I seldom talked to her and the most is I just smiled to her when I met her each time.
Explained to her that I had stepped down and due to my ITP last semester, I kind of lost touch with club.
Furthermore, I need to complete my FYP within this semster.

Or maybe, I just don't want to go there anymore.
Its a place that left me too much memories.
Sweet and bitter memories.

realized ever since school starts this semester, I only stepped into SAC once.
That only one time.
I went there alone, with anticipation.
In the end, its disappointment.

When you anticipate too much, the greater disappointment you get.
The impact is so big that you can't feel it at that point of them.
You feel numb.
Its only the after effects that left you knowing how great the disappointment is.

That's when all the destruction came unknowingly.
That's when you do things with your heart and not your mind.
That's when you can't stop thinking.
Everything just happen before you have anytime to react.

After so much bad stuffs and disappointments since the beginning of the year.
I pray that something better will come my way.

Lynnie black out at 5:57 PM