[[*---Don't Catch Me As I Fall---*]]

Sunday, March 06, 2005

There will be a point of time one would start to question themselves the meaning of life.

"Why do I exist in this world?"
"What will the world be like if I don't exist?"
"Who would come to my funeral when I die?"
"Will anyone feel sad if I die?"

When questions like these start to occur in your mind, its like a turning point of your life.

I begin to question myself too.
I haven't found any answer to satisfy myself.
I feel that I need to really know the meaning of life.
Slowly, I'll know the answer..

I gonna be 20 soon and its like I had lived 1/4 of my life if I gonna live till 80.
That's only an if.. Maybe I would be gone soon or what.

Life is short.
Time waits for no one.
This stage of my life is gonna end soon.
In one month's time, I will a working adult and no more a poly student.
I should really think through what I want in the next stage of my life.
I don't want to regret and said things like "I should have done this or that".
I should constantly challenge myself and maybe I would discover a side of me that I never knew.

I know my flaws but yet I let it be shown.
I ought to learn to control myself and never let my weak side be shown again.

I came to realise that parents' love for their children are unconditional.
They sacrifise themselves for their children and don't expect anything back.
All they want is their child to have a good life.
My parents are simple people.
They tried to provide me and my sliblings with things that we want if they could afford.
They din stress us into studying, maybe that's y I'm so slack all this while..haha..
I kind of regretted for this.
Regretted that I din study harder last time to get into university so that I could provide them a better life in future.

But what is done could never be salvage.
Maybe thats what God/Buddha wants me to realise now so I don't do things in furture I would regret.
Lots of goals I wana achive, stuffs I wana do are all circling in my mind.

Guess its time I start to really live for a purpose, for my dreams and goals.
=)

Lynnie black out at 4:02 PM