[[*---Don't Catch Me As I Fall---*]]

Monday, March 14, 2005

Just when I thought things were going well for me,
Another bad news came.
My grandfather pass away on Friday night.
I din know how to react when I heard that.
Its like I begin to accept that death is just part of life.

People around you come and leave.
No one will be there for you forever.

Just recently, the person I love dearly made his departure out of my life.
It came like a tsunami attack.
Something unexpected.
Maybe signs are already warning me but I chose to ignore.
Only after it came, I felt the impact.
Ever since, I'm like clearing up the mess caused by the attack.
Its tiring.

Its even more tiring when thoughts of him don't leave.
It became part of you.
The feeling is so fcuk up!
Times when are bad, I still thought of him.
Just like the death of my grandfather.
It reminds me of the time when his grandfather passed away.
I felt so helpless coz I din know how to console him.
I'm bad at consoling people.
I wish thoughts of him would fade away as time passes.
I am tired of thinking of the person I love deeply who don't love me anymore.
Tired of feeling sad, tearing for the person that may already forgotten who I am.
If I could, I want to be someone that forgets easily.
Maybe I should go for some brain wash or something.

As I was packing my wardrobe , I came across all the club tees I had.
Memories of club lfe came flowing back.

I miss the fun I had during my year 1 and 2 of poly life, especially year 2.
Those were the times where friendships were true and all of us work hard together to get ICT club be on track.
Those staying back late in club for events planning and preparation.
Those bioing of pretty babes and hunks at SAC.
Gossiping of other club's pple.
Arr... How I miss them!!

But club life for ICT students can only last merely for 2 years.
Year 3 is the time for ITP and FYP.
If wasn't for that 1 year as a committee, I guess I would have miss out alot.
I miss all my interclub friends..
puwen, michelle CLS, marcus, vincent SB, kevin, oliver SMA etc...
Those I call CI peeps!!

But life has that go on, all of us had moved on.
Those can only be memories I hold dearly in my heart.
I wish for the best for all the people I know during my poly life~!
=)

Lynnie black out at 5:10 AM