[[*---Don't Catch Me As I Fall---*]]

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

CNY morning

Yeah..its CNY eve morning..
I'm stuck at home..
Term break commends yesterday..
Stupid... During CNY season...

I deleted some of my past entries.
Looking back, I was really silly.

Been like 2 months since sch reopen..
More then 6 weeks since Christmas Eve.
He choose to leave when I needed him most.
Ever since, I started to do stupid stuffs..
Hahaha...Really feel like a fool.
Its obvious he had gave enough hints its nt possible for us to be tog.
At that time, I still hang on.
Its only until yesterday I realised..
Maybe it wasn't meant to be from the start.
If I could,
I wish to turn back time and never let it start.
Its difficult to be friends.
Now, I know why.
I could still rem he once told me we could last thru chinese new year.
Haha.. we couldn't even make it to xmas.

I should be contented that he is leading a good life now.
He have always been leading a good life.
Its juz at that point of time, I became a burden.
Its sad to think back.
Saying good bye seems to be the hardest word.

One of my frens told me,
He prefer to see me hating someone than loving someone.
He said it wasn't my character to be hanging on like that.
I know what he meant.

I hide all the stuffs that would remind me of him.
I avoided spinnovex though I wanted to visit my frens.
But that doesn't stop me from thinking.
Its difficult to stop when its already inside for so long.
It never leaves.

Thanks for all my frens for knocking sense into me all this while.
And of coz my beloved family, for loving me the way I'm.
My dad for cooking/buying food for me whenever I'm hungry.
My mom fortaking care of me when I was sick.
My sis, Sheila for encouraging me thru the bad times.
Wen, for letting me see thru facts..
Nana, for acc me when I wanted to cry.
Ru, for tolerating my nonsense during FYP.
And many more that had been wif me for that time.

The best way to repay them is to be back myself.
A better Lynn.

My tears had dried up.
I dun long for love between 2.
Its difficult for me to fall in love again.
Unless I could meet someone that could really change my mind.

V day is coming in a weeks time.
I know its stupid, I wanted to give him a prezzie.
And the prezzie I wanted to give him is the thing call "Letting go".

Hope he is able to receive what I want to give him.
=)

I have moved on..
Though its seems to take abit long, I'm glad I'm out of it.

I eat like a pig now.
Hahaha!
Anyone onz for good food after CNY??
Sakae, Fish&Co, N.Y.D.C,Marche,Ajisen!!
I crave for cheesecakes....!!
Been quite sometime since I have them...!!

Lastly, Gong XI FA CAI pple!!
Hope u guys had a great CNY!!

Lynnie black out at 5:45 AM