[[*---Don't Catch Me As I Fall---*]]

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Workaholic..Feel so Lost

I'm so lost..
I need to find back myself..
The Lynn that is once so confident..
Maybe I'm over confident of myself..

"If You are not happy with urself,
You won't be happy with someone else"

I'm really not happy with myself..
I dun care hw they see me tat day.
Have they ever been think from my stand.
Guys will surely help guys especially they are from the same clique.

I always do what I feel is right.
I like things to go my way.
Juz like the way I handled club last time.
I believe in myself that I can achieve what I want.
All the events I handle..
As long as I get things done..
I dun mind paying from my own pocket and sacrifising my time.
All the effort I put in, results are shown.

Now is like my whole confidence juz drop.
I can't make myself feel positive.
I feel like a fool.
I can't seem to find back myself.

Friends notice change in me.
I dun talk much.
I seem to become someone else.
I tried to be positive but negative stuff juz pop out.
It seriously sucks.
I'm strong in everything except my emotions.

Is it really true that stress can change a person?
Someone asked me this.
I guess so..
I juz have to look at myself.

FYP is getting heavier.
It so that I kind of have no free time on weekdays.
Except when I go home.
When weekend comes..
I'll start to become negative.
I prefer to be busy so I won't think so much.

I know how it feels to be bothered by someone which u had no interest/feeling.
I also know how it feels to be not able to get phone calls or replies from pple u long for.

Everything is juz so contradicting.

I tired to be back myself.
The more I tired, the higher chances that I failed.

I wish to go back to the good old days..
But its impossible..

Lynnie black out at 7:21 AM