[[*---Don't Catch Me As I Fall---*]]

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

Life's so unpredictable..

Life is indeed unpredictable..
Juz look at what happen to Patong Beach..
It will never be the same anymore..
So many lives are lost..

This made me realize one thing...
Really never take things for granted..
Not only for things.. people especially...
Those tat care for u and u care for...
Tell them u love them and really cherish them..

I muz learn to appreciate things and people ard me..
Few days ago..
I still tot I'm the unluckiest person...
Feeling so upset and torturing myself..
Now..I have to change my thinking...
Things always happen for a reason I guess...
Its juz something I gotta take time to accept and digest..
Life still gotta go on..
The sun will still rise..
Nothing will change when I torture myself so much..
Now... Its juz getting used to the life I used to have..
Juz tat is extremely boring...
No more club events to plan.. No more hang ard SAC..
FYP juz sucks...
Arr.....!!
But its better than ITP!!

Now its time for me to get a life!!

Lynnie black out at 2:40 AM

Sunday, December 26, 2004

Merry Christmas??

Merry Christmas to all~
I used to love Christmas alot..
Juz love this season..
But tis year..Xmas is more than juz receivin and giving presents.
Its both extremely sad and heartwarming.

Xmas eve was a really bad one for me..
Those tat are really close to me knows it..
I was sick physically and emotionally..
I got an ulcer in my tongue..
It is a barrier to chewing ..
This had been goin on for a few days..
That results me in slimming down..
With all the factors contributing..
I look terrible..
No more chubby hammy..

I'm utterly stress up wif my FYP..
So many things to do ..
So little time..

Furthermore, emtional stress is adding up..
When feelings are lost, its difficult to retrieve back..
Although I hate this, I have to admit tat tis is true..
I'' ll jus have to appect wat tat comes on the way..
I know is tough..I'll try..
I had enough of all the terrible things tat is coming my way.
Its simply destorying me.
I dun deserve that!
One of my frens told me..
I used to be so sure and confident of myself,
so cheerful.. so energetic..
But where of all these gone..
I wan to be back what I used to be..

Some say I'm quiet..
But I'm not as quiet as what they think..
They juz simply dun understand me.
When I'm out going, they juz dun get to see.

I simply miss being in club..
Juz like whatI did during my Year 2 of Poly..
Where all the fun, joys and friendships were..
Now, all are simply memories to be kept inside forever..
I miss all of them.. the people.. the things I used to do.
Now, I feel so empty..
Almost everyday is FYP and more FYP.
Nothing else..
But tat is my piority now!!
I will strive and work hard!!

I shall not let those tat make me so sick and sad for the past few weeks bring me down anymore !!
Its simply not worth it!!
I will live better than them!!

For now..
I finally realise the real meaning of Christmas..
Its more of Giving and Sharing..
Thanks to my forever Best Friend..
Thanks for making today , Christmas,a heartwarming one for me despite of all of what I'm feeling.
On Christmas.. I only have the rights to be happy and nothing else..

Lynnie black out at 1:17 PM

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

~2nd week of school~

The title is kind of boring..
Juz can't think of any title...
Being a year 3 student is so boring......!!
Everyday is FYP and more FYP!!

I'm sick again...!
Got MC for Mon....
Throat infection, fever, flu..
This time more serious...
I actually snezze and cough blood...!
Serious infection...
I know y I'm sick..
Its more of a mental thing than physical..
Its kind of stupid to torture myself becoz of tat problem..
Anyway a verdict will be out soon..

FYP has been giving me lots of stress....!
Christmas eve is juz 3 days away...
I love Christmas!!
No xmas atmosphere coz we need to go to sch...!
This year's xmas could either be a very sad or a very happy occassion for me.
I'll know it soon..
Who dun wish to have a memorable xmas..
It would be memorable..
Juz tat whether is it happy or sad..
No matter wat, I'll accept whatever tat comes to me.

Lynnie black out at 1:15 PM

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

School starts Today!

I actually think tat sch is kind of boring now.
Still having the holiday mood coz is Dec!!
But its better than itp.
What I miss abt ITP will be the income.
Though the pay is peanuts, its better than nothing.
Timetable now is kind of slack..
Most of the time are occupied by FYP.
Above tat, is juz 2 electives and 1 core module.

Reach sch at ard 11 plus wif nana.
Wenty Biz IT library to look up some books on PHP.
Got a couple of them and we proceed to FC6 for lunch.
Yiwen said tat I had slim down..Haha..
She's nt the 1st one tat said this to me.
Think is a bad sign...

Met up wif our FYP supervior who is also our PTN, Mr Liew.
He went thru wat we are suppose to do for our proj.
Still kinda of blur of wat to do..
I guess tis is normal after being absence in sch for so long.
We are to do up an intranet for some church.
Gonna meet up wif the church i/c tml for further details.

School ends at 2 for us today!!
CSB was cancelled.
We are suppose to end at 5.
But its expected tat we will end early for the 1st day..
but nt tat early I guess..

Everyone got their plans...
Those tat are attached(Yiwen, Wanling) ,
went to look for their other half.
Yuanru went for band.
Nana and Weipeng went out wif their frens.
And me??
I seek comfort and love at home...!! =)

Someone tat is once soclose to u today,
Can be a total stranger to u tomorrow.

Lynnie black out at 10:47 AM

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

UpDaTes!

Had been really lazy to blog for the past one week or so..
Buzy enjoying life....!!
Last Friday marks the end of my time at Growhill!!
Now, is freedom...!!

Met up wif Maytong and Baoqi on tat day too.
I miss much so much...!!
Bought a gift each for them, cute chocolates!!
Baoqi bought us something too...!!
The gathering was great...!
Updates one each others' life and talking abt the future.
Hope to meet up wif them soon again which I think is soon?
We shall see then.

Had been rather busy helping out in Sheila's prom night.
Shopping wif her to get her heels, accessories, manicure etc..
When both of us go out together, pple always mistaken as frens!!
We r sisters wif a 3 year gap!!
Its either she looks old or I look young.. Hahaha..
Anyway, its still great to have a sister tat can clique wif u.
I clique well wif all my sliblings which I think is a blessing to me!!
Got Cammie to do Sheila's make up.
I'm sure tat I made the right choice.
I can leave Sheila's face to her care.
Well, she turn out to be really gorgerous.
Hope she wins the title of prom queen tonight!

Less than 2 weeks to sch reopen.
How time flies...
Lots of events coming up for me too..

3/12/04-CI Games Trial
4/12/04-SAT Test
06-08/12/04-ICT CBC
11/12/04-CI
Hmm..
Muz make myself useful in CBC and CI!
Hate gg for camps and doing nothing!
SAT Test.. Not much confidence but will put in my best!

Freedom is Great!!
Its priceless and worth so much more!

Lynnie black out at 3:40 PM