[[*---Don't Catch Me As I Fall---*]]

Sunday, December 26, 2004

Merry Christmas??

Merry Christmas to all~
I used to love Christmas alot..
Juz love this season..
But tis year..Xmas is more than juz receivin and giving presents.
Its both extremely sad and heartwarming.

Xmas eve was a really bad one for me..
Those tat are really close to me knows it..
I was sick physically and emotionally..
I got an ulcer in my tongue..
It is a barrier to chewing ..
This had been goin on for a few days..
That results me in slimming down..
With all the factors contributing..
I look terrible..
No more chubby hammy..

I'm utterly stress up wif my FYP..
So many things to do ..
So little time..

Furthermore, emtional stress is adding up..
When feelings are lost, its difficult to retrieve back..
Although I hate this, I have to admit tat tis is true..
I'' ll jus have to appect wat tat comes on the way..
I know is tough..I'll try..
I had enough of all the terrible things tat is coming my way.
Its simply destorying me.
I dun deserve that!
One of my frens told me..
I used to be so sure and confident of myself,
so cheerful.. so energetic..
But where of all these gone..
I wan to be back what I used to be..

Some say I'm quiet..
But I'm not as quiet as what they think..
They juz simply dun understand me.
When I'm out going, they juz dun get to see.

I simply miss being in club..
Juz like whatI did during my Year 2 of Poly..
Where all the fun, joys and friendships were..
Now, all are simply memories to be kept inside forever..
I miss all of them.. the people.. the things I used to do.
Now, I feel so empty..
Almost everyday is FYP and more FYP.
Nothing else..
But tat is my piority now!!
I will strive and work hard!!

I shall not let those tat make me so sick and sad for the past few weeks bring me down anymore !!
Its simply not worth it!!
I will live better than them!!

For now..
I finally realise the real meaning of Christmas..
Its more of Giving and Sharing..
Thanks to my forever Best Friend..
Thanks for making today , Christmas,a heartwarming one for me despite of all of what I'm feeling.
On Christmas.. I only have the rights to be happy and nothing else..

Lynnie black out at 1:17 PM