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Tuesday, November 09, 2004

Unusual Monday

Monday has been really a day wif blues for the past 4 months.
Today is different coz I din have to go for work.
I applied for leave.
Yes.. It nt becoz tat I need nt go to work.
Me and Ching Ling continued at Growhill as interns.
Was surprise tat the boss asked us to stay.
I really wonder y he did tat..
Maybe he gt too much money to spare.

Me and Ching Ling agreed to stay intially.
We regretted the next day..
We both tot tat is tiring and boring.
We want to rest and have freedom.
We did called to reject the offer...
But we failed.. sianz...
Lucy kept asking us to stay to complete the project.
We are suppose to turn out for work today..
Dear Ching Ling applied leave due to personal matters..
I dun wan to be alone for 8 hrs..
So I faked tat I needed to go back sch...
Bad of me right... bt who cares..

Kind of regretted to stay...
I kind of have too much things in hand for me to handle..
My SATs... 4th Dec...
AK told me..
If I wanted to score really well for it,
I need at least 3 weeks of intensive studying..
I only have ard 4 weeks to SATs..
But nw.. If I work, 8 hrs a day will be gone..
Hw am I suppose to study for it...
When I think of this..
I really feel kind of stress..
Stress tat I can't complete the project in Growhill..
Stress tat I can't do well for SATs..
Tot after ITP, I dun have to stress tat much..
I guess tat is life..

AK said tat I have to make a choice between work and SATs..
I can't have the best of both world...
I get wat he means..
In life, we have to sacrifice certain things to gain others.
But I wan to prove to myself tat I can cope wif these 2.
I know is tough.. Life is never easy anyway..
I need motivation and pple to believe in me..
I have to believe in myself 1st..
That's the most impt thing.

SATs..here I come....!!
=)

Hope tml will be a great day..
A day at Growhill again...!

Lynnie black out at 1:10 PM