[[*---Don't Catch Me As I Fall---*]]

Sunday, October 03, 2004

Terrible Day

Today was one of the worst day(Saturday-02/10/04) I had ever felt.

Woke up having terrible stomach cramp. No wonder I felt so tired yesterday when I was out wif Dear. Tired was part of my PMS...argh... The cramp was alright at 1st. It worsen when I went out wif bro to meet his gf,Yingsi, at Parkway to get Sheena's bdate prezzie. It was her 21st bdate today. I felt so terrible tat I gotta get panadols. I rarely had such terrible cramps. When I need panadols, it meant tat its really terrible.

After getting Sheena's prezzie, we went over to Yingsi's hosue as it was still early. We were meeting Mummy at Bedok before we proceed to the chalet at Costa Sands. Took panadol there and rested for awhile. The worst had yet to come.

The 3 of us took a cab to fetch mummy there. After we got Mummy, we continue our journey to the chalet by taking the same cab. I didn't know tat it will take so long from Bedok to reach Pasir Ris by cab. Was feeling real terrible on the cab. Feel like vomiting but I held on. I had motion sickness. Furthermore, my cramp was coming back even though I ate panadols.

When we finally reached Costa Sands, I quickly rushed outta of the cab. I couldn't tolerate anymore, I vomitted. Yes, I knew I would. Its juz a matter of time. I vomitted due to montion sickness and maybe coz I din eat my lunch. My terrible cramp made me lost appetitte.

The chalet was filled wif lots of pple when we reached. All were Sheena's frenz. Ate abit of noodles as my stomach felt really empty. I msged Dear telling him tat I felt sick. He was at Pasir Ris bt at certain country club to celebrate his senior's 21st bdate too. He din reply me. I was wondering if he din receive my msg coz sometimes this kind of thing do happen.

We left the chalet at ard 11 plus. Take a cab home again. Guess I am getting really scared of cab. Luckily, this time nothing happened to me though I felt kind of sick.

After bathing, I msged Dear again. The msg he replied clearly proved the fact tat he did receive my previous msg. I am disappointed and sad. I dunno y. Maybe I'm expecting too much. Sick then sick lo.. y should I need concern frm him? I am getting dependent on a guy... Sucks.. I should more independent. When I was sick for the past few days, I msged him to tell him tat I was sad tat he din even call to ask hw I was. I didn't know y I said tat to him too.

Ching Ling told me tat she was surprised tat I actually said tat to him. She said I dun potray myself as those typical gfs tat demand concern frm their bfs. But I feel tat this is not demanding. I also dunno hw to describe this.

I think frm now onwards I shall keep any probs to myself. I feel tat whether I tell him or nt doesn't make much difference. At this point of time, I dun feel like telling him anything anymore. I dun want him to think tat I'm some irritating and unreasonable gal tat demands his attention. Maybe I'll change this thought after someday.

Though I felt sad and disappointed, I still love him as much.

Feel so funny to blog abt my relationship probs but I juz need some place to pen my thoughts. Felt so much better after writing all these out. Though I still feel kind of sad, but its much better now. Can't let such small prob tie me down. There are more challenges awaiting for me.

A good night sleep is wat I need now to make me feel even better. Tata...Nitez~

Lynnie black out at 4:08 PM